I'm tired

I am fucking tired. No joke, I am brutally exhausted more of the day than not. My wife works full-time, my oldest son is 5 and my youngest is 5 months. I currently run 3 entrepreneurial ventures and my team of athletes. The balance is what almost breaks me. In trying to achieve balance between doing right by my family and my businesses, I get beat up in the middle.

As bleak as I made the above sound, I am really in a good place with it all. My newborn will not be an infant forever. As my kids get older, it definitely gets easier. I love what I do and who I do it for so it is really quite good, not bad to feel as I physically do. My family and my mission gives me purpose. This purpose is what keeps me going.

If I didn’t believe in what I do, I would never be able to do it. Without my deep love for my wife and children, I would not be able to do this. Because I believe and I love, I can go farther, work harder, and trust to make better decisions than any alternative.

I am not writing any of this to say I am better or that I am proud of the grind. I am writing this to make the point that if I can do this, so can anybody. I am as average a human as anyone. I have been fortunate enough to have people in my life that made me see what matters and to guide me into a place of purpose. There is no magic here. There is an understanding of self and a commitment to trusting people.

People pay big money to figure out the meaning of life as if it’s a big secret. There are no fucking secrets. Take the time to find yourself. Strip away all the judgement and insecurity and allow yourself to see your naked truth. Once you have that, you can act upon it or deny it. If you run with who you are, you will win at life. The secret to success is being who you are. You can’t buy who you are. You can’t spend to change who you are. You are and will always be who you are. Own it, learn to love it, and surround yourself with those who love you for being you, not the you they want you to be.

My wife hates me at times. Seriously, my wife really doesn’t like who I am and wishes I was different. The thing is that makes us work is that she accepts who I am and knows that changing me is where she will lose me. I feel the same way with her. I love her completely for who she is and believe totally in her ability to be herself in a successful way. I don’t like certain things he may do, but I love who she is.

I am not perfect. My Marriage is not perfect. I am not the best Dad. I am working hard at these things and doing the best I can. If I fuck up, it’s not intentional. As long as I stay connected to my purpose and allow myself to love plus trust the people in my life, I have the energy and drive to keep going which affords me a chance at success. In truth, I feel that I have already won because trust and love are much greater than any currency I have ever encountered. Money is nice to have, but no amount of money can replace my wife or kids. No money can make the personal victories achieved with my team any better.

Do the work, figure out who you are, trust, love, succeed…

Brian Wright